Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
no regrets
Life is funny, when you think about it.
To me, Life has been a series of coincidences. Some good, some bad, but eternally linked. Like how some things are meant to happen and that's just the way they are. Almost like fate.
I understand, I accept, for the longest time now, that things happen for a reason. Bad things don't happen just because. Some good has to come out of it, like a hidden agenda. There has to be a silver lining. I'm foolishly optimistic in that way.
Perhaps that's why even when Life doesn't go the way I hoped it would, it has always had this funny way of working out. It may not be what I want at the end of the day, but turned out to be what I need instead.
Like how this happened because of that. But if that didn't take place, then this would not happen at all. Two events that are independent and yet intertwined, where one would not have existed without the other. Two different endings hanging on one insignificant decision.
If given a choice (and the foresight) to do it all over again, I would stubbornly choose to make the same bad decision. I rather that happened so that I could have this - my silver lining.
You know the part where Robert Frost once lamented of how "Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both"?
Consider this: What if both roads lead to the same point? Would it matter then which path you take? Given the chance, would you choose to rehash and rewind? Why?
I'm at peace, strangely contented with the way things are at the moment, even though Life had not gone the way I wanted it to.
To me, Life has been a series of coincidences. Some good, some bad, but eternally linked. Like how some things are meant to happen and that's just the way they are. Almost like fate.
I understand, I accept, for the longest time now, that things happen for a reason. Bad things don't happen just because. Some good has to come out of it, like a hidden agenda. There has to be a silver lining. I'm foolishly optimistic in that way.
Perhaps that's why even when Life doesn't go the way I hoped it would, it has always had this funny way of working out. It may not be what I want at the end of the day, but turned out to be what I need instead.
Like how this happened because of that. But if that didn't take place, then this would not happen at all. Two events that are independent and yet intertwined, where one would not have existed without the other. Two different endings hanging on one insignificant decision.
If given a choice (and the foresight) to do it all over again, I would stubbornly choose to make the same bad decision. I rather that happened so that I could have this - my silver lining.
You know the part where Robert Frost once lamented of how "Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both"?
Consider this: What if both roads lead to the same point? Would it matter then which path you take? Given the chance, would you choose to rehash and rewind? Why?
I'm at peace, strangely contented with the way things are at the moment, even though Life had not gone the way I wanted it to.
Monday, August 14, 2006
gender un-biased
It was meant to be a routine nothing-exciting-ever-happen day. It still is actually but as I was minding my own business filling up an e-form, I stumbled upon something not often seen, and will probably never be seen in my dear old conservative country. Everything's pretty standard; first name, last name, mailing address, etc. Pretty boring, until I got to this column:
Turns out I have an additional choice. This is so darn fascinating.
Only in America.
Turns out I have an additional choice. This is so darn fascinating.
Only in America.
Friday, June 16, 2006
it's like i'm losing my mind
This whole business of being sick (and staying that way) has totally fried my brains, I’m certain. I’ve been getting these weird dreams day after day. I woke up tired and dreading the drive to work, coz it felt like I haven’t slept at all.
Just yesterday, I dreamt I was in this bicycle entourage, touring to dunno where. You know, something like those big adventures we have in Primary 2. Anyway, there were a bunch of us, almost 10 persons. None of them are my friends or anyone I barely know. Funny how I can dream up normal looking stranger faces. Everyone has a super kick-ass mountain bike. Everyone except for me, that is. All I got was this lousy chair with wheels at the bottom, like those upholstered office chairs.
I’M SUPPOSED TO GO TOURING ON THAT THING???
Not sure how I managed it but I was side by side with the group at all times wherever they went. However, at one point, the chair became just a chair – hard, wooden, no wheels. Although it doesn’t make much sense, I was thinking “Hmm.... this is quite a predicament, isn't it?”
Reminder to self: No matter how much common sense you think you have, all of it goes out the window when you’re sleeping.
I wonder if my dreams are trying to tell me something. You know, people say dreams are often a reflection of reality. If you dreamt of flying, it signifies control, freedom, success or power. If you dreamt of being naked in public places, it means you’re feeling vulnerable or have a fear of being ridiculed. But if you dreamt of getting around the town in a chair as your main means of transport, that’s just weird!
I hope the next time I get stuck in a ridiculous dream like this, I’ll slap myself silly and go back to sleep.
Just yesterday, I dreamt I was in this bicycle entourage, touring to dunno where. You know, something like those big adventures we have in Primary 2. Anyway, there were a bunch of us, almost 10 persons. None of them are my friends or anyone I barely know. Funny how I can dream up normal looking stranger faces. Everyone has a super kick-ass mountain bike. Everyone except for me, that is. All I got was this lousy chair with wheels at the bottom, like those upholstered office chairs.
I’M SUPPOSED TO GO TOURING ON THAT THING???
Not sure how I managed it but I was side by side with the group at all times wherever they went. However, at one point, the chair became just a chair – hard, wooden, no wheels. Although it doesn’t make much sense, I was thinking “Hmm.... this is quite a predicament, isn't it?”
Reminder to self: No matter how much common sense you think you have, all of it goes out the window when you’re sleeping.
I wonder if my dreams are trying to tell me something. You know, people say dreams are often a reflection of reality. If you dreamt of flying, it signifies control, freedom, success or power. If you dreamt of being naked in public places, it means you’re feeling vulnerable or have a fear of being ridiculed. But if you dreamt of getting around the town in a chair as your main means of transport, that’s just weird!
I hope the next time I get stuck in a ridiculous dream like this, I’ll slap myself silly and go back to sleep.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
jogja earthquake
A massive earthquake with a magnitude of 6.3 rocked the ancient city of Jogja at 5.54am today, leaving thousands dead in its wake. Most of the people were still asleep, hence catching them offguard. Up until now, there are no confirmed numbers as to how many had perished in this disaster.
May their souls rest in peace.
May their souls rest in peace.